Dwelling on Insignificance...

I thought it wasn't important...
But my secret seems not reliable anymore...
No more of its significance...
I need to seek the stars that aren't out there anymore....

I long for those Heavens...
Who's doors lack existence...
I cherish their prophecies...
Which aren't meant to be...

See my flimsy will...
Its brought upon me a light...
But with it a darkness falls...
Thats here to stay all night...

I immerse my vain self
In a cauldron of loathing...
Its compassion for you
But its a pity I care not for...

I dream of stars that lack the light...
They are here to stay no more...
Reminiscence is weak...
I cannot deny their power over me...

Funny how nothing changes...
I was insignificant, but now no more...
This dwelling secret of mine...
Has tainted my will atlast...
I live, but not anymore.

This raw mortality comes
In doses I can't measure...
I sense I'm alive...
Denying my right to be...

So make me less aware...
Stop them from taking over...
Recollections of what I never was...
Before I can sense its no more....

I'm still crying tonight...
I need not rely on myself anymore....
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