Precarious in Leaving...

i dont know how and i dont know when...
we'l suppress this pain n move on to searching...
to know we've lived on alone, again n again....

our dreams..our lone treasures...
will have been foolishly discarded...
as we r now but ghosts of our souls...

Silences creep up seductively...
caressing the darkness bound within....
We could let go of foolish pride...
and gather up false pretenses...
Nothing so simple as it seems...
Why hide when you've got nothing left...

This distance, it kills...
When we meet time and again...
only heroes get their reward...
How long do i lay eyes...
for the steps of yours to come...
Ive drained and lost the innocence of it all....

Maybe it isnt the agony we allow it to be...
To yield, and bow as we humans do...
To discover again the rain falling outside...
Pain brings a freedom so aspiring...
it clings to our coat-tails...
and brings with it an agonizing light...

Sleep resists and our hearts relent...
meaningless words dont define the pain...
passage of time is thought to comprehend...
how artfully it comes to repaint....

as time passes by, logic fails...
I seek refuge in the madness that follows...
to be this weak is a dangerous dream...

owe nothing..regret nothing...
only the faint heart should speak...
strength is born of a malignant weakness...
we needed such a belief...
but will failed us, poetically in midst...
all those yrs werent there to be wasted....

now nothing suffices..no witnesses there...
We r failing miserably when we r to be needed...
but why let darkness effuse this light of love...
it brings with it a reverence of sorts...

because you say,
u know who you love...
you know its me..
you know its true...
i know your not well....
im in pain too...

the least we ever got...
was the most we ever knew....
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